Tag: Black Writer

Tantrum

I was trapped alone in a room completely padded with white pillows

There was a huge wooden door with several heavy metal locks

I raced to the door to open it, but of course, it was locked

Panic ensued shortly after

I screamed, but my voice could not be heard

I beat on the door until my body gave out

I knew I did not belong there, yet I was stuck

Suddenly, the air in the room tightened

My breathing changed to a rigid labored pattern

Crying was not an option

I fought hard to hold myself together

No one noticed

The day went on uninterrupted by my struggle

They thought I was smiling, but on the inside, I couldn’t breathe

All the surrounding noise could not drown the dreadful silence that engulfed my soul

If I wait long enough, this will pass and the door will unlock itself

No one but me will ever know I was in there

A Battle Within

With all the grains of salt I’ve collected through the years, I’ll need more than a shot of tequila to take this one down.

The benefit of experience;
Having the right perspective is far better than any fantasy realm. That way you know what is real and what is fiction.

I exposed far much more of my soul to him than I intended, without realizing he had not intended to be the recipient.

Damn. I stand here with a smile before you, but really he has wounded me to the core. If I were to walk away there would be a trail of blood to follow behind me.

~The Waring Robins~

Theatrics of a Wiser Fool

I fell in love with a beautiful lie
The premise seemed promising
The attention and affection seemed perfectly timed
I decided to intentionally dismiss the discrepancies in favor of hope
The truth was always there
My heart and passion hurried through the blurred lines
Now I know for certain that a figment of my imagination was fed with sweetness
But
What is easily given is even easier to take away
The coldness from withdrawal left me inconsolable
How funny is it that I’ve been beating on a stone wall that had nothing behind it all along
My openness and raw emotions were preyed upon
Now I feel like a wiser fool
That is what happens when one sits too close to the stage
The magic no longer has a stronghold because all the flaws are fully displayed
I got caught off guard, caught up in my feelings, and played
What a dreadful experience indeed

Things We Don’t Talk About

Things we don’t talk about

Make no mistake;; no ALWAYS means NO
Whether it is stated once or a thousand times
I am an adult and can admit that there are some occasions where there’s room for negotiations
BUT
Repeated, adamant, pleading NO means just that
When I was younger, I made excuses
BUT
Now that I’m older
Assault is ASSAULT
I cannot get past the sinister satisfaction in their eyes when they’re being begged to STOP
PLEASE holds no water
The friendliness and kindness go out the window
Dignity is stripped away with your clothes
Panic, fear, and disbelief take over
Not fight or flight
BUT
A sense of helplessness
Abuse of power is ABUSE
It was then, as it is now
I WISH EVERY MALE WHO HAS MADE A FEMALE FEEL THIS PAIN COULD REAP THEIR KARMA IN FULL

Catch Me in Love

Catch me in love

Don’t think I fell
I was pushed

Shut my eyes tight
Afraid of view

You spoke past my flesh
Right through to my spirit

Asked me right out did I believe I’d fall again
I cried to you the wounds of a former pain

Never dreamed about a place where I wouldn’t have to beg
Faintly remembering all the good things in life I deserve

No matter how short the time
You’ve awakened my nature

I feel fortunate and blessed for the ride
No longer scared to fly

Catch Me in Love

Catch me in love

Don’t think I fell
I was pushed

Shut my eyes tight
Afraid of view

You spoke past my flesh
Right through to my spirit

Asked me right out did I believe I’d fall again
I cried to you the wounds of a former pain

Never dreamed about a place where I wouldn’t have to beg
Faintly remembering all the good things in life I deserve

No matter how short the time
You’ve awakened my nature

I feel fortunate and blessed for the ride
No longer scared to fly

Catch Me in Love

Catch me in love

Don’t think I fell
I was pushed

Shut my eyes tight
Afraid of view

You spoke past my flesh
Right through to my spirit

Asked me right out did I believe I’d fall again
I cried to you the wounds of a former pain

Never dreamed about a place where I wouldn’t have to beg
Faintly remembering all the good things in life I deserve

No matter how short the time
You’ve awakened my nature

I feel fortunate and blessed for the ride
No longer scared to fly

Bad Feelings

Bad Feelings

Between the hollowed-emptiness, barrage of saddened rage, and jumbled stream of thoughts; I am a mess. Never knowing if I said too much or should suppress it all in. All of those bad feelings haunt me. They wake me in the wee hours of the morning. Though I had been asleep, my spirit had been weeping the entire time. To verbally articulate my grief, would be the same as confessing to the world a losing battle with despair. All I can do is write; to release the strain from my body. Just know, every letter of every word in every sentence is drenched in the pain of my tears.