Tag: Spiritual

Tantrum

I was trapped alone in a room completely padded with white pillows

There was a huge wooden door with several heavy metal locks

I raced to the door to open it, but of course, it was locked

Panic ensued shortly after

I screamed, but my voice could not be heard

I beat on the door until my body gave out

I knew I did not belong there, yet I was stuck

Suddenly, the air in the room tightened

My breathing changed to a rigid labored pattern

Crying was not an option

I fought hard to hold myself together

No one noticed

The day went on uninterrupted by my struggle

They thought I was smiling, but on the inside, I couldn’t breathe

All the surrounding noise could not drown the dreadful silence that engulfed my soul

If I wait long enough, this will pass and the door will unlock itself

No one but me will ever know I was in there

Catch Me in Love

Catch me in love

Don’t think I fell
I was pushed

Shut my eyes tight
Afraid of view

You spoke past my flesh
Right through to my spirit

Asked me right out did I believe I’d fall again
I cried to you the wounds of a former pain

Never dreamed about a place where I wouldn’t have to beg
Faintly remembering all the good things in life I deserve

No matter how short the time
You’ve awakened my nature

I feel fortunate and blessed for the ride
No longer scared to fly

Catch Me in Love

Catch me in love

Don’t think I fell
I was pushed

Shut my eyes tight
Afraid of view

You spoke past my flesh
Right through to my spirit

Asked me right out did I believe I’d fall again
I cried to you the wounds of a former pain

Never dreamed about a place where I wouldn’t have to beg
Faintly remembering all the good things in life I deserve

No matter how short the time
You’ve awakened my nature

I feel fortunate and blessed for the ride
No longer scared to fly

Catch Me in Love

Catch me in love

Don’t think I fell
I was pushed

Shut my eyes tight
Afraid of view

You spoke past my flesh
Right through to my spirit

Asked me right out did I believe I’d fall again
I cried to you the wounds of a former pain

Never dreamed about a place where I wouldn’t have to beg
Faintly remembering all the good things in life I deserve

No matter how short the time
You’ve awakened my nature

I feel fortunate and blessed for the ride
No longer scared to fly

Bad Feelings

Bad Feelings

Between the hollowed-emptiness, barrage of saddened rage, and jumbled stream of thoughts; I am a mess. Never knowing if I said too much or should suppress it all in. All of those bad feelings haunt me. They wake me in the wee hours of the morning. Though I had been asleep, my spirit had been weeping the entire time. To verbally articulate my grief, would be the same as confessing to the world a losing battle with despair. All I can do is write; to release the strain from my body. Just know, every letter of every word in every sentence is drenched in the pain of my tears. 

To Wake From A Dream

You could be a mirage for all I know
An image of what is hoped for
If you let me embrace you, I would not turn you loose so quickly

You could be a phantom for all I see
A summoned spirit conjured from sheer desire
If you let me stay by your side, I would not walk away so easily

You could be less than perfect for all I care
A real person with as many faults as mine
If you let me have you, I would appreciate your very essence with intent

You could be a miracle for all I imagine
A manifestation of what I prayed for
If you let me love you…….
There are no limits to endless possibilities