Tag: Spiritual

Free, Indeed

Sometimes when I feel overwhelmed, I think of a deer trapped in the thicket of a forest. She isn’t wounded or injured, but one hind leg is stuck. How will she ever break free? Will someone come to save her? No. She shall do it on her own accord. But, how? She will imagine herself free.

If you believe; you shall set yourself free, indeed.

Tantrum

I was trapped alone in a room completely padded with white pillows

There was a huge wooden door with several heavy metal locks

I raced to the door to open it, but of course, it was locked

Panic ensued shortly after

I screamed, but my voice could not be heard

I beat on the door until my body gave out

I knew I did not belong there, yet I was stuck

Suddenly, the air in the room tightened

My breathing changed to a rigid labored pattern

Crying was not an option

I fought hard to hold myself together

No one noticed

The day went on uninterrupted by my struggle

They thought I was smiling, but on the inside, I couldn’t breathe

All the surrounding noise could not drown the dreadful silence that engulfed my soul

If I wait long enough, this will pass and the door will unlock itself

No one but me will ever know I was in there

Catch Me in Love

Catch me in love

Don’t think I fell
I was pushed

Shut my eyes tight
Afraid of view

You spoke past my flesh
Right through to my spirit

Asked me right out did I believe I’d fall again
I cried to you the wounds of a former pain

Never dreamed about a place where I wouldn’t have to beg
Faintly remembering all the good things in life I deserve

No matter how short the time
You’ve awakened my nature

I feel fortunate and blessed for the ride
No longer scared to fly

Catch Me in Love

Catch me in love

Don’t think I fell
I was pushed

Shut my eyes tight
Afraid of view

You spoke past my flesh
Right through to my spirit

Asked me right out did I believe I’d fall again
I cried to you the wounds of a former pain

Never dreamed about a place where I wouldn’t have to beg
Faintly remembering all the good things in life I deserve

No matter how short the time
You’ve awakened my nature

I feel fortunate and blessed for the ride
No longer scared to fly

Catch Me in Love

Catch me in love

Don’t think I fell
I was pushed

Shut my eyes tight
Afraid of view

You spoke past my flesh
Right through to my spirit

Asked me right out did I believe I’d fall again
I cried to you the wounds of a former pain

Never dreamed about a place where I wouldn’t have to beg
Faintly remembering all the good things in life I deserve

No matter how short the time
You’ve awakened my nature

I feel fortunate and blessed for the ride
No longer scared to fly

Bad Feelings

Bad Feelings

Between the hollowed-emptiness, barrage of saddened rage, and jumbled stream of thoughts; I am a mess. Never knowing if I said too much or should suppress it all in. All of those bad feelings haunt me. They wake me in the wee hours of the morning. Though I had been asleep, my spirit had been weeping the entire time. To verbally articulate my grief, would be the same as confessing to the world a losing battle with despair. All I can do is write; to release the strain from my body. Just know, every letter of every word in every sentence is drenched in the pain of my tears.