Catch Me in Love

Catch me in love

Don’t think I fell
I was pushed

Shut my eyes tight
Afraid of view

You spoke past my flesh
Right through to my spirit

Asked me right out did I believe I’d fall again
I cried to you the wounds of a former pain

Never dreamed about a place where I wouldn’t have to beg
Faintly remembering all the good things in life I deserve

No matter how short the time
You’ve awakened my nature

I feel fortunate and blessed for the ride
No longer scared to fly

Catch Me in Love

Catch me in love

Don’t think I fell
I was pushed

Shut my eyes tight
Afraid of view

You spoke past my flesh
Right through to my spirit

Asked me right out did I believe I’d fall again
I cried to you the wounds of a former pain

Never dreamed about a place where I wouldn’t have to beg
Faintly remembering all the good things in life I deserve

No matter how short the time
You’ve awakened my nature

I feel fortunate and blessed for the ride
No longer scared to fly

Bad Feelings

Bad Feelings

Between the hollowed-emptiness, barrage of saddened rage, and jumbled stream of thoughts; I am a mess. Never knowing if I said too much or should suppress it all in. All of those bad feelings haunt me. They wake me in the wee hours of the morning. Though I had been asleep, my spirit had been weeping the entire time. To verbally articulate my grief, would be the same as confessing to the world a losing battle with despair. All I can do is write; to release the strain from my body. Just know, every letter of every word in every sentence is drenched in the pain of my tears. 

To Wake From A Dream

You could be a mirage for all I know
An image of what is hoped for
If you let me embrace you, I would not turn you loose so quickly

You could be a phantom for all I see
A summoned spirit conjured from sheer desire
If you let me stay by your side, I would not walk away so easily

You could be less than perfect for all I care
A real person with as many faults as mine
If you let me have you, I would appreciate your very essence with intent

You could be a miracle for all I imagine
A manifestation of what I prayed for
If you let me love you…….
There are no limits to endless possibilities

Victor (y)

Victor(y)
“The race is not given to the swift nor the battle to the strong, but (S)he that endures until the end.
Had a spiritual awakening. Met PFC Ruffin (my former self 22yrs prior to this date; AIT/Ft. Jackson, SC) midway the trail. She represents the most pure and innocent aspect of my adult life. I envied her. She was enamored with me, believing that I embodied a finished work; successfully navigating emotional and physical trauma.
I was proud to tell her one day we would love life on our own terms, and it would not break us.
I can endure. I AM SHE THE VICTOR